Thinking out loud

Made it safely back from Florida, and had a great time, of course. The weather was great, we spent every morning at the beach, afternoons at the bay and swimming pool(yes, swimming pool, the water was great), and evenings we usually went out for dinner. I wasn't in a big seafood mood for some reason, so I only had my favorites while i was there, crab cakes, scallops, and blackened something, I think it was grouper or flounder, can't remember now. Anyway, the kids had a great time, mine, the 5-year old, and my 1-year old nephew. We went to Gulf Breeze(near Pensacola), there is still a lot of construction going on which is getting tiresome, just goes to show how bad hurricanes can be. Nothing too exciting happened on the trip, pretty relaxing(when we weren't chasing children), saw dolphins twice but they were far out.

I got back from Florida a little over a week ago, but I wanted to post something about it anyway. I leave for Vegas Monday, getting pretty excited, never been there, have a feeling it's going to be hot! This week I'm teaching an art camp at the Memphis Jewish Community Center,never been in there before, pretty nice, wanted to make a little money before I leave, and doing yards in the afternoon. Busy, busy. I think I'm packed, at least in my head, I know what I'm going to take with me to Vegas, now gotta get in together for real. Mom and step-dad are in Florida for the week, again, it's a wedding this time, they come back Sunday and leave on Monday for their trek to Alaska for the summer. It's going to be really weird not having them here. My families pretty close and I'm waiting to see if mom can make it that long without seeing any of us, she says she's not 100% sure she can, but I hope she does, once in a lifetime kind of trip, and their not getting any younger(who does?, that's a really stupid phrase). That's about it, got to go, lots of stuff to do, hopefully I can post once before I leave out.

Havent' watched TV lately, a bit of baseball, and I started watching Serenity again the other night, need to finish it.

Curious to read what all the CSI fans thought of the season ender last night. I myself wasn't as crazy about the episode, I'm glad it ended the way it did though, for two reasons, I won't spoil anything for those of you who haven't seen it yet. However, the have drug out so many issues in that show for sooooo long, that the ended, although cute, didn't affect me that much.

I liked the season ender to Witout a Trace best so far, Jason Preistly was in the show. It was good, and I love ole Jack.

Leaving for Florida today, be gone for a week, that's why this post is short and kinda lame, got to finish packing, get my son to his pre-school graduation before we leave, and my mind is already on it's way to Florida. See you all in a week!

Quick update! Busy, busy, busy, getting things ready to leave for Florida this Friday, going for a week. Sure it will be crowded on the weekends, but who cares, it's the beach. My little man had a show at school last week, for his gymnastics class, I can't beleive I've been paying for a year and this is all he can do. I was mainly disappointed because it looked geared more for 3 and maybe 4 year olds, so Ethan, and his other 5 year old buddies in the show, looked bored and could easily do the stuff, which wasn't very hard. I felt they should have split up the ages into different shows, 3-year old show, 4-year old show, etc. It wouldn't have been so long that way either, half the parents and kids were gone by the time Ethan got his medal. Doubt I'll sign him up for that one anymore. He graduates, from preschool this Friday, before we leave for Florida, he's so excited about going to the beach.

Saw two movies recently, MI 3 and Poseidon. MI 3 was good, more story than action, can't complain about Tom's performance, he did good, Liked Hoffman as the bad guy, just wish he had been in it a little more. Can't decide if I like it better than MI2, liked that one a lot. Posiedon was good, short, but good, a little over an hour and a half. Lots of action, lots of stress for me, too much at times. Liked all the people in this one, still think the original one was a little better. I like Josh Lucas a little better after this one, never been a huge fan of his.

Finally caught up on my shows from last week, I only have three so that isn't too hard. Loved House, liked his interaction and almost concern with Cuddy, Foreman, and especially Chase. Story itself was sad, terribly sad. CSI was good, might have posted on this already, I really want to see the second half Thursday before I decide whether or not I like it. Without a Trace was interesting, can't beleive they left you just hanging like they did. Loved the way Jack and Viv argue, she's the only one who has the guts to confront and challenge him. Season ender looks like it might be good. One show I wish I watched is Numbers, that one looks good, might pick up a new show next season, depending how my 3 end.

Tonight is the start of Csi's finale, did anyone else hear the radio preview where a guys voice said something along the lines of "either I walk out of here or she dies." SHE dies, that could very well be a red heirring(think I spelled that wrong), or something could actually happen to Sara or Catherine.
I have a ballgame at 8:30 tonight of course, unless the fields are too wet, or it rains again and if it does we won't play. I'd really like to watch it when it airs, but might have to wait, either way, I'll see it tonight.

I'd like to catch Hugh Laurie on Actors Studio, it's a neat show, a way to see the person behind the character(s), I just love his accent anyway. It would be nice if I lived in or near New York, I might try and make the taping of the show but I don't, Memphis, TN is a little far and I leave for Florida on the 19th. If it were just me, I might skip Florida, but my son loves the beach and is very excited about going. Haven't seen this weeks episode of House yet, may try and catch it today.

Mom and Howard(step-dad) leave for Florida today, I'm house-sitting. Hope to see Poseidon this weekend, may have to wait until next week. Didn't catch the Beale Street Music Fest this year, no one I know really likes to go, and when you live here you know it's mostly teenagers and heavy drinkers. That's not very nice though, it's what you make of it anyway, didn't feel like going though. Got things in order for my sond new school yesterday. Kindergarten. It went well I think, I live with my mom, actually I live out of two houses, mom's and brothers(sad I know), it's only semi-temporary and since I have no place of my own, I had to prove residency to the school, so mom had to gather a bunch of paperwork and such, the people were very helpful. Need a place of my own though. Vegas trip is getting closer, about a month away now.

Let's see, I'm trying to catch up on the weekend but I can't seem to remember what I did, on Friday anyway. Hate it when that happens. Ok, I've got it. Spent most of Friday playing with my little man (he's 5), he loves to play! He carries around a bag of Star Wars trooper characters(I think I've bought him every one), and loves to play with them, so we did that, as well as played actual troopers, I always have to use the ninja sword for a gun because we only have one play gun, and it's not even that good(need to put that on my list), not once did he ask to watch TV or play his playstation(to which he is trying to become addicted to), all he wanted to do was play with me, I love days like that. I really love those days because I know it won't be long before I don't hear the words "mommy, want to play with me?", anymore. Ok, getting a little deep. It was his dad weekend, so Ethan went to his house around 2pm, I went back, finally watched the end of Dr. Zhivago(I've been dragging it out for a few weeks not), and didn't like it as much as I thought I would. I liked the movie, just not the ending. Left you hanging, and not it a good way, at least that's the way I felt. Brother, brother's friend, and I went out for dinner, hoping for mexican, but it was Cinco De Mayo(?)so the restaraunt was a little crowded, ate Mcalister's instead(great sweet tea). Back to the house and watched our shows for the week. CSI, House, and Without a Trace.
The House two parter this past week was my favorite so far, along with the 2-part season ender last year.

Saturday. Slept in, took my dad with me to watch a friend play Rugby, I was really getting into it. It was the end of the season tourney, and after my friends game was over(they lost), dad and I hung around and watched the next game,and part of the third. I could have watched more, but I needed to go. What a wild game, rough of course, hard to figuire out the rules of which there seem to be very few, but I still had a blast. I'd like to catch some on TV sometime. After that, ran errands, played a little frisbee golf with a friend, interesting game,it was my first time, I'm not a golf fan, but the frisbee part made it kind of fun. Mom and I went to church that evening. Went to my brothers to hang out, watched the end of Casanova, which was cute, and The Life of David Gale. That ones been out for a while, heady movie. Pretty good, I remember how much I like Kevin Spacey when I see him in a movie like that. Overall I doubt I'd watch it again. I liked The Usual Suspects better. Stayed up to late.

Sunday. Slept in, again. Cleaned house most of the day after grabbing some lunch with my brother and a friend, Mexican! Got little man back that evening, apparently his dad has a new girlfriend because he went to her house and told me about her pets, dogs and birds. Funny how his dad hasn't mentioned this yet, but he nover does, I always find out though I never ask Ethan about it, he just tells me. I think this makes 5 girlfriends in the year since we've been divorced, none have been serious but I'm not sure if that's a good thing. Ethan has met them all. Hope I don't sound bitter, maybe just a little jeaous, I can't imagine dating again, not right now. Didn't do much after that. Watched Ghostbusters, Ethan likes that movie. Lot more language than I remember.

Monday. Today, Took Ethan to school, went for a run, going to lunch with mom, working this afternoon. That's it!

I haven't seen a single show this week, which is why I haven't read and posted to any friends yet. I didn't realize House came on at 7 instead of 8 last night so I missed recording the first fifteen minutes. Oh well. I should be able to see CSI and Without a Trace tonight, we're supposed to play ball tonight but it is raining here and is supposed to be storming by the afternoon, so the game will probably be canceled. I went shopping all day yesterday with my mother, we didn't really get anything, we're not big shoppers, and I hate shopping for clothes, I get so overwhelmed. I was helping her look for a dress to wear to a wedding, didn't find anything. There aren't many dresses out there, it's all two-pieces this year, skirt + whatever you want to wear on top. We even asked the sales associate in Khole's(don't thin I spelled that right) where the dresses were and she told us they weren't getting any this year, crazy! We had fun though. Mom's newly retired so spending time with her is great! Not much else going on, but I am lunching with Tripp35 today.

Finally caught up on last weeks CSI and House(just in time for this weeks), CSI was different, I enjoyed it, lighthearted, cute seeing everyone's version of the same story, Nick cut his hair, Greg's version was funny, Grissom was in a good mood, Nick cut his hair! Loved Nick's new do by the way. I sadly only made it half way through House, so I'm not actually caught up, but the episode is lost so the only way I'll see it is on a re-run. We had a crazy storm come through last Tuesday night, so the second half of the show is weather. And I mean the entire screen is weather. No sign of House ever reappeared. I think they were suppossed to repeat it on Saturday, I didn't know that until Sunday, so if they did, I missed it. I'll have to read about it because I want to know how it ended, and was wondering if what I guessed was going to happen, actually happened.

Took myself to a movie today, Akeelah and the Bee. It was really cute, feel good movie, reminded me very much of Searching for Bobby Fischer(loved that one!). Akeelah made me want to go home and play scrabble, I always liked to spell, though I'm nowhere near Spelling Bee calibur, any eleven year old Bee kid could squash me at spelling. No good previews, ones I've already seen a hundred times before.

Any Karl Urban fans out there? If there are, you've probably already seen the Pathfinder preview, saw it on yahoo yesterday, I'll have to see it. Very Conan-ish. I don't know if it will be that good, but I like Karl so I'll go in support in my favorite New Zealander. There was another one with Guy Pierce, a western, that looked good. I like Westerns, it's been a while since I've seen one, I feel and urge to pop in a John Wayne movie. Love those.

Took my math final last night, aced it! I was so happy, I studied hard and still couldn't believe I got an A, so I ended the year with a B. As for my online art class, I don't know, I tried to withdraw but the teacher has yet to respond to any of my emails, maybe she forgot I was in the class. Oh well, could end up with an F, I'll be taking it over next year anyway, IN class. To everyone out there who are or have taken finals, I wish you luck. Summers here, no classes till fall for me. Well, maybe a non-credit one or two.

It's windy and raining here today, I do like that it's cooled down a bit. Yesterday I cleaned moms house, getting it ready for her and my stepdads arrival from being out of town(I was housesitting), and I really wanted to go see Akeelah and the Bee but decided to study and little math instead. Ate mexican last night with the guys, and watched A Sound of Thunder. Decent movie, not the greatest but a really neat message and storyline, I'm an enviromental nut anyway, based on a short-story(at least I think it was short), by Ray Bradbury, and stars a very buff Edward Burns. I'd already seen it in the theatre so I didnt watch the whole thing,and it was a little too scary for my 5-year old, not a horror flick, but scary creatures in it. My brother bought the movie Casanova, which I have not watched yet.

Today, got coffee, fixed breakfast, watched a few cartoons with my son( I do like that GI Joe one, used to watch that when I was young), and then went to see a friend play Rugby. I've never seen a Rugby game before and know nothing about it, but I must say it was fun to watch. A little rough, but interesting. It was a high school team and of course there were quite a few injuries(one boy was taken away in an ambulance with a head injury). Our team won, it rained the whole time, stopping as soon as the game was over. I am now fixing to sit down and watch this past weeks CSI and House. I'm supposed to play softball tommorrow but more storms are coming our way so I doubt it's going to happen, if I don't play I'm not quite sure what we're going to do, other than me study math.

I do love Fridays. Mainly because we get a nice insert in the daily paper, The Playbook and it lists all the upcoming events, art, music(I live in Memphis, TN, so it always has the most), plays, and such. As well as new movies released including reviews by local guys who you simply can't trust, Tripp35 and I keep saying we're going to be the next movie reviewers in our town, fire the rest of them, I really like that idea. Anyay, today, Akeelah and the Bee started, which actually got a decent review, I want to see this one, any kind of movie that promotes learning and literacy I'm all for, because I love that stuff(showing of my vocabulary skills), and United 93, the movie about 9/11 and the plane that the passengers took over and crashed in Penn., I'm torn about this one, I had to fight back tears when I saw the preview, I'm not sure if I'm ready for a movie like this, but it supposed to be good and I do think it's worth seeing.

I heard, or rather saw a poster in the movie theatre the other day, I think it was called Two Towers, about the the world trade center attacks, I want to say that it is coming out this fall. The only thing that might make me not want to see this one is that Oliver Stone is directing it. I don't mind a little statement making in films, but he goes overboard on his, and I wouldn't mind even that if his movies weren't terrible, if your going to make statements and throw stuff in peoples face at least make it worthwhile, I don't care for his movies because of this so I don't plan on seeing Towers as of yet.


Registered my son for Kindergarten yesterday(early registration), I'm not ready for this, he's 5 and he's going to start school in the fall. I'm not ready for this. It's too soon, he's my baby, he can't be starting school yet, I'm soooo not ready for this. Actually, I've always wanted to homeschool, There's great support groups where I live, large network of homeschoolers through the local churches(and we have a lot of churches), I just don't know if I can pull it off, single mom, gotta make a living, provide a home, ex doesn't pay me a penny(though he's working hard to be a good dad, time with Ethan is his payment right now), but still, I don't know if I can do it, and most people don't like the idea of homeschooling, so not only would you work hard to make ends meet and give your child the time and attention you need to for homeschooling, but you also have to fight criticism from people around you and those you meet. The good thing is that the school he's set to go too is nice, and I have yet to hear a bad thing about it, so that helps. OK, I've went on forever and a day, so bye for now.

Haven's seen this weeks shows yet so can't say much!

We had our first ballgame tonight, Co-ed slowpitch softball, and won. We played a good team, lots of young players, good attitudes, and they hustled, we beat them only because we out hit them. Not too bad for our first game of the season. From now until August I won't be seeing any CSI on thursday nights, only on repeats. Have no idea what I'm going to do this weekend, it's supposed to rain, I feel like such a boring mom sometimes, I can never think of anything fun to do, that doesn't cost a lot of money.

Nothing special yet, missed House this week, usually catch it with my brother over the weekend,(thank heavens for Tivo, well, in my case, DVR), we've come such a long way since the good old VCRs and setting timers to record your shows, although I never minded that way much. A nasty storm blew through Tuesday night, we had a tornado watch for about three hours and one was sighted right down the road from us. It was a bit scary considering what just happened in the Dyersberg area, lot of people killed, and I've heard more horrible stories than I care to know. Anyway, we, dad, me, my son Ethan, and a friend of ours sat around watching a movie(The Wilderness Family, used to love that when I was a kid,couldn't understand why my mom and dad wouldn't move me to Alaska to live in the middle of nowhere, I understand a little now of course), we got a phone call from another friend who started asking if we had seen a tornado, that a horrible storm system was headed our way, we didn't have a clue, so we cut the movie of, and as soon as we did, heard all the sirens going off, ran outside, watched the lightning for a minute and then headed back inside where we spent the remainder of the evening in front of the TV watching the news, not too far from the bathroom, in case we had to jump in the tub, not sure how safe that would be but it's all we had. The only damage we had was my mothers glass outdoor table shattered because we couldn't ge the umbrella off of rolled up completely, Im house sitting of course, but she wasn't too mad, and no one anywhere was hurt. Last day of classes was yesterday, final on Monday, lots of studying to do.

It has been forever since I posted! I've been neglecting my poor journal(online one anyway), and the few friends I have. So, I'm trying to commit to writing every morning, every day, some private, mostly public.

Quit a job recently, cleaning houses. I hated it, I have the greatest respect for anyone who does it, but I didn't like it at all. And I'll tell you why. First of all I worked for a small company but I was contracted out, which basically means I'm self-employed without calling my own shots. Not bad, because they find you the work, but the also set your schedule, and you have to work all by yourself, an entire house, big ones too, all by yourself, and you have to get it done as quickly as you can, because you may have another one to do. When I was hired, they said you only worked about 6 hours a day, not so, I was lucky to be done in 9 and I got tired of eating on the go, in my car, every work day, bacause you didn't have time to stop and get anything to eat(this job is good for loosing weight), you use your own car and buy most of your own equipment, chemicals were drying out my hands and the work was killing my already problematic neck. Ok, so I sound like a big baby, as active as i am, this job just wasn't for me.

I do work with a friend landscaping, mowing lawns really, and a few side jobs weeding gardens as well as teach art, I have several art camps coming up this summer. I can make as much mowing lawns as I did cleaning houses, another reason I didn't like it too much. Anyway, enough about that. I have not kept up with many TV shows, House is my favorite right now, I really do love that show, followed by Without a Trace, although I don't enjoy every episode and I hope they don't just sweep Martins drug addiction under the rug nice and neat like a lot of shows seem to do when something traumatic or serious happens to someone. after that, I'll watch CSI if I hear the episode is good.

I've actually been running fairly dry on movies, I haven't really had the desire to go much lately. The last one I saw was Ice Age 2, with my son, and I liked it. I don't know if it's as good as the first one, it takes about half the movie to really get into it and enjoy it, but by the end, I was loving it. Before that there was V for Vendetta and I REALLY loved it. Saw it twice, liked it so much went and ordered the graphic novel, written by Alan Moore, and was very pleased, it is a bit different, the movie changes the story around quite a bit, but keeps true to the character V, who is what I liked most about the movie anyway. Hugo Weaving did an amazing job as V, wearing the Guy Fawkes mask the whole time and managing to out act every one else anyway. The novel is worth the read, Alan Moore is a good writer.

That's about it, no not really, but I could go on and on with this and that, so I'll have to catch up bit by bit every day(that's my goal anyway), schools almost over, summer vacation to Vegas is almost here, Kindergarten looms ever closer for my son, starts in the fall, hope I can handle it, brothers going through an awful divorce(wont talk about that right now), good friends fixin to have a baby(May 25th), mom and stepdad getting ready to leave for a 3 month trip to Alaska(lucky devils, but they do deserve, mom just retired),and eagerly awaiting summer moviethon! Have a great day all!

Happy New Years everyone, at least I hope it was a happy one. I welcomed the New Year as I always do, with a family dinner at mom's house, we eat, play games, I drink too much champane because my family is getting on my nerves by the end of the night. We celebrated the New Years countdown in New York, on TV of course, everyone left after that and I went to bed so none of us made midnight, our midnight that is. My son spends New Years at his dads, so I spend most of it missing him. Overall, everything was good, I'm thankfull I made it to another year and with family and friends still with me.

Holidays were pretty hectic this year, busy, busy! I got everything I wanted for Christmas and then some, so no complaining there. I try not to buy myself anything the week before Christmas to avoid duplicate gifts, but I did buy Serenity DVD when it came out, because I didn't ask for that one. I made the mistake of preordering it(why, I don't know), off of amazon, so I didn't get it until the Friday before Christmas. I've watched it twice already, and now I want to re-watch the series, great out-takes, and deleted scenes(wish they would have left a few of those in there).

School starts back on the 17th, I'm taking night classes this year, just two again. Looking for full-time job, son goes to kindergarten this year, so I'll be looking into schools. Would love to homeschool, but don't know If I can do that yet. I haven't written up my New Years Resolutions yet, but here are a few, take a trip somewhere just me and Ethan(son), complain less, love more, keep wants in check(appreciate what I have), get a job, a place of my own by the end of the year(hopefully a house, rental of course), join a church(been attending one for two years, need to make a commitment), not planning on dating or no plans to loose any weight, just stay in shape, I spend a lot of time with family already so that's good, I do only have a couple(literally two) friends that I spend time with, and being a single mom, just turned 30, a big goal this year is to expand my social network a little, make a few more friends, but not forget the ones I have. Ok, that's more than a few, could go on for ages, will post my list when finished.

Stomach virus has been going through the family, I haven't gotten it yet and I don't plan too.

I have sadly neglected my LJ lately, no excuse really just haven't put in the time. I apologize to all of you I have as friends and promise I will do better.

My last day of classes this semester is Tuesday, I really can't beleive it's almost over. I'm not nervous at all about my finals, they're going to be pretty easy, but I have slacked up on my paper revisions for English class and I have to get those done for my final project. It won't be that hard but lately I've had a terrible time getting myself to sit still write, draw, or do homework and I don't know why. Part of it is because I'm becomming very discouraged in the pursuit of what I want to do as a career. I'm tired of thinking about, and more tired of not having any idea. Does everyone struggle with this? My problem is I have too many things I like to do and can't narrow it down to one career, but I want to make money so I have to pick something. I'm on the verge of ignoring all of the things I like(arts, literature, english, languages) to pursue something solid and in demand like nursing or perhaps teaching. I've never cared for either, but I will make money in nursing and always have a job, and you can hardly beat the schedule of teachers(summers off I mean), anyway, dream-discouraged and don't know what to do about it. Heck, I don't even know what I dream to be, frustrating.

Seen a few movies lately I won't post reviews here, I do that at honadle.com, but Pride and Prejudice was my latest, loved it. I really liked Matthew Mcfadyen as Darcy, he was very handsome in the movie, I looked him up on imdb.com and he's not as cute in person, I hate that. I saw Walk the Line, liked it alot, not a big Johnny Cash fan, but it got me interested, the music in the movie was really good. Harry Potter 4 of course, awesome movie, and Zathura, great family flick. My brother bought Mr. and Mr. Smith last night and we watched it, funny movie, Brad Pitt was really good in it, and I'm not a fan of his, Angelina was OK in it, she was too much like Lara Croft, Tomb Raider, and I'm not a big fan of hers either. I really didn't see what all the fuss was about them in the movie, I've seen sexier onscreen chemistry(liked Brad and Catherine Zeta in Oceans 12 better), so I guess it was all about their off-screen romance which I have not opinion about since I'm not a fan of either of them.

TV is kind of slow right now, I've been wanting to watch something new, may try out NCIS on Tuesdays. I'm starting to crave some of my fav shows, which is why I want the first seasons of both Highlander the series and Star Trek: The Next Generation. I miss watching them so it's time to start collecting some seasons.

My Christmas List: (tv series DVDS mentioned above), keyboard(so I can practice piano, a swiss army knife(with a compass), two posters(noahs ark by Haruko Takini, and Ecstasy by Maxfield Parish), I'd love an IPOD but I didn't ask for that, money would be nice, gold cross necklace, Target gift certificate, silver initial charm bracelet, movie gift certificate, bookstore gift certificate(i really like gift certificates), and one book I know, The Art and Science of Fencing(a sport I really love to do but can't afford to keep up with right now). That's pretty much it, I love Christmas but now that I have a son, who's 5, I want him to have it all.

I am finally getting over a lovely little stomach flu my son gave me over the weekend, it's the real friendly kind that passes around to everyone you come in contact with. I really hope I don't get it again.

I'm going to see Saw II with my brother here in a little while, I promised him I would see a scary movie with him for halloween, so this is it. I didn't think the first movie was all that bad, the end was kind of surpising though and thought it would be worth checking out the sequel.

FINALLY, House is back on schedule, world series is over and was slightly disappointing too, but House is back. I didn't like last nights episode as much as I had hoped, I probably built up such high expectations since I've been waiting a whole MONTH to see a new one. Cameron got on my nerves last night and I don't know why. It could be because it's another older man, younger women deal so like Grissom and Sara, and since that's still an unresolved(we think) issue I'm just not up for another long drawn out affair that goes nowhere. I really don't want them to do that.

I finished watching the entire ONLY season on Firefly (all 13 episodes) and couldn't be happier, I've been browsing for posters recently and noticed that there are a couple of books out about the making of it (going to have to get those), I'm so hooked on the show. I will have fun rewatching the episodes,but it's sad that I have seen them all and it's over.

Halloween was fun! My son is 5 and is just now getting into trick-or-treating. I'm surprised Halloween isn't his favorite because he LOVES costumes. I have several in a bin for him and I'm always on the lookout for more(especially when there on sale, like now). He used to hate going up to the door and asking for candy, but this year he really got into it. I thought he would end up shy like me but he's really coming out of his shell. I guess it's ok as long as he doesn't end up an a**hole like his father. I'm sorry, did I just say that out loud. Well, not really. I shouldn't talk about my ex like that, although he was to me, he's trying hard to be a better dad. There, I said something nice about him.

I just watched last weeks CSI, I can't remember the title, but I loved it! It's my favorite so far. I just love the way they are letting Nick work out his emotions from his traumatic buried alive incident and not simply pretending it didn't happen. When I started to watch CSI when it first came out, Grissom was my favorite, but over the past few years I've gravitated over to Nick, who is now my favorite CSI. I just love it when he gets teary eyed, of course I have to cry then too. Just wanted to make a quick post about that, great episode!

Man I haven't posted in a while, when I first started on livejournal I was spending quite a bit of time on the computer, but that was also before school started. I also have to borrow computers, I don't have one of my own, shocking I know, so I use the ones at the public library's, my mothers, and my brothers, I am looking forward to the day when I get one of my very own.

Just got back from Florida, lots of construction still going on, but the ocean was pretty calm and the weather was nice(mid 80's). My 5-year old usually loves it at the beach, but he wasn't into it as much this time, the water was pretty cold. Everytime I go to the beach I wonder if I would like to live there. There's no doubt I love the beach life, water everywhere, there's always a breeze, comfortable clothing, seafood, etc. But I have a feeling it wouldn't be as good if you lived there year round. I wouldn't want to deal with hurricane season. What I would like to do is have a condo near the beach that I can visit whenever I want, but live elsehwhere.

My friend Shannon and I are going to see My Fair Lady on stage this weekend. I'm rather excited. I love going to the Orpheum, our big, fancy theatre here in Memphis. I went earlier this year to see Mama Mia, which was very good. So, two plays this year, not too bad. I'd see more there if they weren't so expensive.

Not much else to tell, school is still going good, I should be deciding on my spring schedule pretty soon. My major isn't defined yet, so I get to play a little.

I ordered "Firefly" the series off of amazon and just recieved it in the mail today, it's the series that the movie Serenity is based on, I'm really disappointed they canceled it. Anyway, looking forward to watching it, my be watching the Cardinals and Astros tonight! I'm ready for House to start up again, November 1st.

OK, sci-fi fan that I am I hadn't heard a thing about the tv show "Firefly" that came out about 2-3 years ago and was canceled after the first season. I wasn't watching a lot of tv then(my son was in toddler years then), so that may be why. So, I went and saw the movie Serenity the other day, it's based off of the tv series, and I loved it!! So much that I have been looking into the cast and story and just yesterday bought the complete season on DVD. I had to go to amazon because I couldn't find it in stores here(it was released in 2003). It seems the tv show was such a hit and garnered such an internet following that they made a movie, and I hope there is a sequel. Anyway, I was disappointed that such an original storyline and great characters wouldn't make it, sad fact of tv and good stories that never get to be I guess. I know it started on Fox, I'm glad to know that the sci-fi channel picked it up and it shows on Friday nights. I could literally live with basic tv and the sci-fi channel. Anyway, kudos to Serenity!!

So far so good in school. I am doing really well in English, A average so far, but I really love English so that helps. Math and me still haven't found that common ground in our brief friendship. I enjoy the class, the teacher is a trip and has taught me more about math in these past few weeks than I learned the entire time in high school. And I'm still failing, we'll, I was failing until I aced the math test we took today, I failed the first one, but we're allowed to drop our two lowest test grades, so if I can keep from failing too many more I should be fine. Our first paper in English was due this week, we won't get them back until next week. The hardest part about school so far is toting around that backpack, my neck is killing me!

Ok, I saw the House season premiere, i love him so much, he is hilarious! The stories were ok, I like the friction between house and his ex(Sela Ward), not sure where they are going with the relationship between him and Cameron. I haven't seen this week's House, or the CSI premiere, I hope to watch it tonight.

Today is my nephew's 1 st birthday. His name is Gabriel Stone Davis, and he is one bundle of energy. My son will by 5 on Sunday, and he was nowhere near this hyper(thank goodness), but I really can't believe It's already been 5 years, It feels like it's been 5 years, I just hate seeing him grow up. I really want him to stay the way he is now. He is a Playstation maniac. I monitor and control the time he spends on it, it's crazy, when I was young, not getting to go outside and play was the biggest punishment, now it's not getting to play video games.

This is my first real post, so it might take me awhile to get into the flow of things. I thought I would begin by saying something about returning to college at the tender age of 29(by the way, I turn 30 on Monday, and It's starting to really sink in). When I first ATTEMPTED college after high school, I really could care less about going to school, I had no idea what I wanted to know, and if I wasn't playing sports then I didn't want to be there. So, needless to say, my first college experience was very unfruitful, academically anyway.

Now, I love it! Granted the stress is a little higher, since now I have to juggle time with my son(who turns 5 on the 25th), and a job(when I find one), not to mention any other interests I have, which happen to be many. I'm not saying it's hard, but I am a lousy at time management(maybe I can take a class on that), and now I see where that is so much more important now than it used to be.

But the one thing I truly love about going back to school now, is how the older me reacts to college environment, compared to the younger me. I use to be shy, and I hated being called upon, stared at, and God-forbid I got caught in any kind of confrontation( I still can't stand that). When I was in school before, I tried hard not to be noticed, and lacked confidence in the classroom, though in sports it was quite the opposite. Now, as I walk around campus, I like to look around and notice how young most everyone around me is. How cute they are, but oh how young. I really like this sitting in the classroom, not caring a bit if I'm called upon, put on the spot, in fact, now, I love to be noticed. My second day in English class, the teacher had us all stand up, introduce ourselves, and tell a little bit about us, and when I stood up, I took note on how comfortable I was doing it, how little I cared now about making a fool of myself, especially when it comes to letting the instructors know when I don't have a clue as to what they are talking about. And I smile a sweet smile of contentment when the little youngsters around me blush at being called upon, glancing down nervously at their desks, so shy about a response, and speaking in a hushed tone, afraid that someone might actually hear them. As I smile to myself I also know that I have been there, done that, not going back again, and now it's there turn.